...About A Girl...

new breed of therapy
@ 1:08 pm on February 01, 2005

I've been reading this Christian book [even though I'm not a Christian , I can always benefiet from learning something new theologically] by John Eldgredge called The Journey of Desire.
Its a good book. I would recommend it to anyone. The only reason I honestly started reading it was because it was assigned to me in English Construction II.
It is an extremely powerful book...like nobody could believe. I have to admit I've been skipping over the parts that list bible verses and such and reading everything else. Nonetheless the point is proven that we always need something higher than ourselves to accomplish our true hearts desires.
While I was reading it today I came across a paragraph that hit home for me in the current situation I've dug myself into with Chris.

And this is what it said:

"Don't let your disappointing experiences cloud your understanding of this [intimacy]. We have growncynical, as a society, about wheather intimacy is really possible. To the degree that we have abandoned soul-oneness, we have sought out merely sex, physcial sex, to ease the pain. But the full union is no longer there; the orgasm comes incomplete; its heart has been taken away. Many have been deeply hurt. SOmetimes, we must learn from what we have not known, let it teach us what ought to be."(pg.135)

Whoa! Huh? It kind of blew me away. This guy writes with such passion, and I couldn't believe the clairity it gave me after I consintrated on that for a short while.

Does this mean I will become a born again virgin? Probably not... but it still gives me hope that there is some love out there just right for me...and one day I will find it because it is my destiny and my desire.

Today was a decent day. Christina came to school late & read my diary. Who doesn't right...lol...what fun it is to read! [not really...]
She gave me a note commenting on certain things I wrote. I'm glad she did...she told me she didn't intentionally ditch me on Friday , which I already knew...but it was nice to hear from her.

I got a pack of Marlboro Menthol 100's [my faves] today.

Mr.Freark's [teacher from last year] daughter started today. She seems really cool. She likes Otep yeah yuh! So I'm getting to know her a little bit.

Also, my first paycheck comes in tonight so I"m probably going to be buying a domain name! Yes! http://devouredsoul.com

beautiful!

I must go now I am meeting with my renewed old therapist. What fun...

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