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@ 2:36 pm on February 03, 2005

I live in a world where everyone I know expects me to please them.
I'm not a fucking saint... I'm not giving , giving, giving without getting anything back. People that love you always give something back...

I've been in a bad mood all day. I'm out of birth control as of today. Plus I'm getting tired of all this alone business. I wasn't made for this. I've been working every single night this week and I'm damn stressed.

I feel like I'm about to blow up at someone or something. I'll probably end up taking it out on Evergreene...

Christina and I continued with that unicorn story today. I made Richard SImmons chew off one of the unicorns testicals...his left one to be exact. That was my daily negative statement against the male species. I'm fucking sick of men.

Warren is a sweetheart and all but I'm pretty sure he just wants a booty call...like Chris.

By the way I haven't heard from Chris in over a week. Its actually kind of nice. I don't really want anything to do with him... sadly...

Back to Warren though...

Like he said in that email he just wants a friends thing right now. I just want to be a lesbian. I'm not willing to deal with guys shit right now.

I'm glad I didn't have a Leslin experience like Christina so that female option is still open. haha...

I feel like just breaking down and crying but I hold so much pride that I know I wont be able to do it.

I hate tears...but sometimes you need to get them out of your system. Their like a poison that slowly kills you off emotionally if their held in for too long.

Somebody give me a .44 I really need to shoot a couple of people...

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