Deffinately not one of my better poems, if you will, but it means something to me and that's why I posed it here.

There's also this song by Nickelback that I listen to everytime I get out of a relationship. Though NIckelback lacks talent and originality this song empowers me. [psst...I'm also sorry for the overload of lyrics I've been putting in here... music has just been a big portion of my life recently] The song is called "Just For" and its on their Silver Side Up album.


I want to take his eyes out
Just for looking at you
Yes I do
I want to take his hands off
Just for touching you
Yes I do

And I want to rip his heart out
Just for hurting you
And I want to break his mind down
Yes I do

And I want to make him
Regret life since the day he met you
Yes I do
And I want to make him
Take back all that he took from you
Yes I do

And I want to rip his heart out
Just for hurting you
And I want to break his mind down
Yes I do


Dear god, I love spam in my email, don't you? This is what my "daily romantic horoscope" is telling me... and actually it has good advice and sounds familiar... of course these things are always redundant when done unprofessionally...but still. Take a gander:

Scorpio   October 23 - November 21
If there's a method to your sweet madness, now's the time to be methodical. Get rid of any emotional dead weight, reorganize your romantic priorities and lay the groundwork for something new.



sounds like a plan...

On to family life. Danielle has let "local celebrity status" go to her head. What the hell? So Glamour Shots calls and they want to put her fucking head on a wall behind a frame. She thinks she's holy now or something. I hate her... I am so ashamed she's my sister it isn't even funny. Only my friends can understand why I have such strong disdain for Danielle after meeting her. She's a bitch. My friends could just look at her without a glare or rolling their eyes and she'll go from zero to bitch in no time flat. She's also a complete idiot, she can't put two and two together in any kind of situation. She's never been an older sister to me... just somebody I've lived with for 15 years [minus the two she lived in Excelcior].

My TS friend, Lauren, is getting her "big surgery" in May. I'm happy for her because she's been wanting this for a long time now. I've lost contact with her over the last couple years , but when I do talk to her she always shares some awesome advice about being a he/she. Why I'll ever need it... who knows?
Knowledge never hurts, right?

I've also been hating looking in the mirror lately. I seriously hate the way I look. I'm overweight... I've always hated my nose. My sister patronizes me and calls it a "nigger nose" which pisses me off. Not just the stereotype but also the fucking bigotry. Always ready to follow in father's footsteps.

I've got a question for all you females out there... if you could look like anyone, who would it be?

My answers are always weird. Like messy stench for example. She's weird, like me...but she's gorgeous and has awesome hair. Look here to see more pictures of her. She's got awesome radio shows + awesome style & she fights crime with squirt guns. Yes!

Another woman I'm green with envy about are the looks of porno-gorgeous, zenova.

I would seriously get surgically modified to look like any of these women. I've always wanted rhinoplasty anyway [fancy term for nose surgery]

That's all...I worship you Messy Stench!