confidentiality
@ 4:58 pm on March 15, 2005

I got so wasted last night with Christina. Vodka and some juice as a chaser. I'm guessing I took about 8 shots.
I didn't think I was drunk until I was on the floor doing this thing with my hands and it struck me as deathly hilarious.
Christina was on the phone with Danny most of the night...or maybe it just seemed like most of the night because I was drunk.
[(Things happened... I'm not going to say what because I don't want anybody at my school to read this...fuckers.)]

I admitted to not hating Danny. I truth is I don't hate him. I just love Christina too much to see her get into a relationship that will go nowhere. I don't want to see her get hurt by someone that will never admit to loving anyone. My suspicions are always right when it comes to this thing. I just know. And Danny wouldn't admit to ever telling Christina he loved her or actually loving her with his entirity.
I just need to watch out for my best friends heart. You don't understand the how deeply my love flows for my naggers.

Girls do crazy things while drunk. In order for me to actually write out what we did I'd have to put a lock on this diary, and I have no desire to do that. Therefore, my lips are sealed.

Christina might be spending the night tonight. I don't know if she can though because I have this shitty ass appointment at 8:30 in the morning.

I found out a lot of interesting information I didn't know about Christina before last night.
I don't want say too much, I don't think she'd want me to...

Lets just say I hope things between Christina and I aren't any different. We're good buds and I don't want anything to change that ever. Our bond is really deep and I don't think things that were said and done last night could marr that friendship. At least I know they won't on my part...

Lets just say I keep questioning myself even more about certain things ever since last night. I've been questioning myself for years... but now... its a stronger questioning.

I'm sorry this is a pointless entry, but I needed to get it out in the open... as much as I did get out which wasn't much...

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