america remains blind
@ 7:49 pm on March 21, 2005

After the Otep, Kittie, and Crisis concert last November [2004] I approached Otep. I thanked her for writing "Fillthee" and tried to keep the water-works at bay.
Otep grabbed my hand and held it while she looked at me with conviction and said "The best revenge is success, Brittany."

Those five words impacted me more than any others I had ever heard. Not just because Otep Shamaya, my favorite artist on every plane said them...but because their simplistic truth could turn the world around into a positive war-free zone.

Those words got me started on changing my life...

So, when I hear stories on the news about school shootings in Minnesota it brakes me inside. If the best revenge is success than why do so many people resort to violence?

18 people were shot today at a school in northern Minnesota by a tortured soul. The school was located on an Indian reservation and 6 people are dead, including the shooter himself, a teacher, a security guard, and three other students. My soul bleeds for the shooter more than anyone.
Before he left for school in the morning he shot and killed his grandfather and grandmother with whom he lived. That brings the number of casualties to 8 people.

What was going through his head? But more importantly where the fuck were his parents? Where were the teachers? What the fuck were the teachers doing? Why weren't the students heart-felt enough to pick up on his pain?

I'm sure this kid was bullied... that's how it starts. Abandonment, bullying, depression. It turns into a cancer that feeds away at your emotions only to leave you insane and out for blood. I sympathize with him...

I know that it probably sounds inhuman that I sympathize with a killer...but... you have to look and analyze the whole story. [(For a quick overview go here.)]

I was bullied in middle school and even in high school. I was pushed into lockers, tormented, and abused in a school environment(s) where your parents count on you to be safe on all levels. I really wanted to kill everyone that ever hurt me... instead I turned the rage on myself and started cutting. I never let them eat me alive like that kid in Minnesota did let alone Dylan Clebolt and Eric Harris.

These kids needed help...and they were put on ignore and mute until they went over the edge.

So, tell me... are you adding to the problem or helping the cause? Do you want more and more blood spilling on the hands of American teenagers? Or do you want to learn to start looking and listening for those that need love and acceptance as well as somebody positive to look up to?

What pisses me off is
America remains blindto what teenagers these days have to deal with on a daily basis. Violence and hatred are everywhere ready to devour us whole... and more and more kids are falling into that pit only to go over the deepend and take drastic measures to be noticed.
What the fuck is wrong with us?

We need to change this. I don't know what I'm going to do but I can't fucking stand sitting around and waiting for another kid to lose it and shoot more innocent people just so s/he can be seen or heard.

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