sex,drugs, rock n' roll
@ 8:46 pm on March 21, 2005

I've been grounded for the past several days. I had an early curfew on Friday and I was almost two hours late to get home.
My mum was already pissed and that sent her over the edge.
What was I doing to break curfew, you ask?
Well, I told my mother that I went and saw a movie with Christina and Danny...
But that i just what I told my mum.

What I was really doing... well, lets just say mummy wouldn't approve and it deserves a rated "R" sticker for drug use and sexual content.

Christina and Danny picked me up and we went straight to the mall and then to Richards. (We met Richard at the mall so he could show us which way his place was...)

On the way to the mall Danny pulled out a pipe and I took a few hits of the shwag he had. I didn't get high off it though.

Christina said while in the car "Lets get laid!" and lets ignore the comment that Danny made about how much I needed it...a lot...

So we did just that. Richard thought I was kidding to begin with... but the humor went away when I started frantically stripping and he started touching me all over and I him.

We had full out amazing fucking sex for over an hour. He gave me my first orgasm ever while with someone.

Christina and Danny were outside the bedroom the whole time making fun of me and laughing... mostly saying things like "Oh, Richard!!! Ooohhhhh..."

I just retorted saying "shut up you are ruining the mood..."

Danny and Christina had sex for about ten minutes , was it?

*cracks up*

Sorry...does being high shorten sex?

I'm seriously curious about the answer to that question.

Before having sex with Rich I did have many reservations. Such as : will he be another Chris situation?, what if his dick is totally small?, you are losing yourself to hormones , brit!!!, what would my mother think?, will he break my heart?

We are still together, however. I guess I"m not that good at sex... after Rich came I said that I was sorry if I wasn't that good...he just retorted "It's not that you aren't good, just inexperienced..."

GREAT!!!

I love being inexperienced. *sarcasm* At least it means I'm not a whore... it was my second time having sex as well..so hopefully one day I will be a master... or dominatrix... one of those...

So after that we went into a back room at Rich's dad's house and smoked a bowl. I got high that time. Inhale hold for fifteen seconds and you'll get high off five hits. Guarenteed. Its good to let loose a little...

For some reason I feel like Christina and I are drifting a bit... it may be because I've been grounded ... I don't know...
Our conversations and crack up sessions don't last as long... unless we're high.

Maybe its me... I hope we're okay...she's one of my best bud's... I'd hate to lose that , I want our friendship to last forever like Trish's and mine! Trish's friendship with me is so unbreakable. Its awesome.
I was supposed to go to this screamo concert with her last night but my mom grounded me + I had work. Fuck work... I hate my job. I mainly wanted to go so I would be able to laugh at the fucking emo kids. They crack me up. Oooh...look at my flashy converse and high-water jeans...yes! I am uber-trendy. I need to have high-waters because you never know when a flood of tears may come my way! oooh...

Sorry... I just hate that scene... it probably just pisses me off because Kendall and Courtney are into that shit. Its trendy in Michigan, did ya know?

FUcK that.

Btw... I'm now looking for other places for employment. Jason bitched at me last night about being sick. Fuck, man, I had strep throat...fire me for that will ya? He asked if I had the fucking paperwork...no I don't have the fucking paperwork... do I look like a file cabnet? Then he bitched about how I ware too much black. Well, that's what you get asshole...I only have black and denim in my wardrobe so sue me... I won't change my image to make you smile... Apparently, I need to add more "color" . What the fuck is that shit? I dislike color... color doesn't look good on me unless its dark colors...then I look less shitty. Didn't mean to rain on your rainbow parade, Jason... but fuck you!
Unless you decide to add a few more bucks to my income an hour...don't count on me fucking wearing some goddamn glittery pastel bullshit. Okay? That isn't me... not even a place of employment can change that. So give me a fucking tolerable wardrobe layout and I'll be sure to follow it.
How 'bout a damn uniform you useless 35-year-old bar-tender that never gets tips and has really bad income! Loser...

Sorry...I'm done bitching about that now...well, at least for the moment...

'll add more to this later...my mum is pitching a fit at me for one thing or another.

Btw...I JUST GOT HIRED AS A DESIGNER AT STAR LAYOUTS!!!

Yes!

So expect some darker-themed layouts up there soon. Indeed. I will put this layout up there as well once I tire of it... so be looking out for it you greedy children!

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