another convo with rich
@ 5:28 on June 07, 2005

me: there?

rich: yea sexy

me: :-(

rich: you ok?

me: no

me: not really

me: i mean i have to go to fucking you know where tomarrow

rich: yea im sorry hunny

rich: i'll wait for you

me: i'll probably be out by next wednesday

me: i'm not going until the evening tomarrow

me: so i'll just be chilling out at my house
paved in glass: looking for a gun to shoot my face in with

rich: no

rich: stop

me: i'm not suicidal

me: i'm just sick of the constant shit being thrown at me

me: i can't keep taking it

me: so maybe this "vacation" will be okay

me: i just hope i still have my job when i get out of the nut house

rich: god i know huh

me: i'm just worried about what you must think of me

rich: i love you and i think that this is bs you did nothing wrong

me: apparently i did...because karma is kicking my ass right now

rich: no its just kinda rough you can get through it

me: i know i can

rich: good

me: its just hard to see how low my depression can make me... and trust me it gets worse than this...

me: but i know i can get thru

me: i've had harder shit than this thrown at me

me: since i was 2

rich: yea

me: my head hurts

me: and i probably sound like a whiney bitch

rich: no you dont hun

me: i'm sorry rich

me: i'm sorry i can't be better to you

me: or for you

me: i love you

me: i really do

rich: i know i love you too

rich: i love you

me: I hope one day I can make you happy

rich: you are makin me happy

me: i don't see how...but i hope so , love

rich: i love you brit

me: i love you too, rich

me: i just want to get wasted right now and forget that any of this shit is going on

rich: no you can't just wait out the storm hun ok

me: i don't know...

me: "my life has been a prison. a labrynth built beneath the mountain of tragedy...and its not over...its not over..."

rich: i know dear

me: sorry those are lyrics

rich: yea i know i love you hun

rich: i have to go to my dads

rich: i'll call later ok

rich: i love you

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